I'm lost without you..

Wow guys, we suck at Ides of March blogging challenge.
I mean, I've pretty much been really busy working and watching Parks and Rec every other waking moment of the week. It's only been 5 days and I've watched 5 seasons so...
I can't help it! I get sucked in! So sue me! Geez. I mean, I can't help it if Leslie Knope is my spirit animal and I'm her and she's me..mostly. But really.
Other than that, I've pretty much been procrastinating/avoiding making big decisions for my life. No biggie.
(the episodes are only 20 minutes so stop judging me)

Given a chance, I'm gonna be somebody..

This weekend went by so fast..I'm hoping this week goes by just as quick. Fun weekends always go by too fast! Although, I'm always so busy that everything lately just feels like a blur. I think all of the baby showers are over, now bring on the weddings! This past weekend I spent Saturday and Sunday in Mississippi with the lifelong BFF. It's so bizarre to me to see her pregnant. But I'm very happy for her. I know she'll be a great mom. We had fun together..we got to have brunch on Sunday and just talk and catch up. It's funny how we go for so long without talking and when we see each other we just have too much to say and 2 days just isn't enough to get it all out. I'm hoping to visit shortly after the baby is born at some point in June.
This weekend is Easter! I am doing the Color Run Saturday morning, then we are having a family crawfish boil..Sunday is the big day and then food and more family. I know it hasn't been that long since Christmas, but for some reason it feels like forever since I've seen my fam! I keep forgetting that I'm supposed to make the potato casserole that we can't seem to go one holiday without having and then I do that thing where I remember I am kind of stressed out about something, and what was it? Oh yeah, potatoes, Don't forget to make the dang potatoes!! (<--wow.)
In other news, today I finished watching House of Cards. I liked it a lot! I mean, there are some crazy things that happen..but it just sucks you in. It feels like in BB, how the writers (or producers, or directors, or whoever "they" are) make you like Walt, even though he is a "bad guy." It's the same for HOC, it's like, you don't want to see him fail after everything you've been through together, (I mean, sometimes I feel like I go through all of the stuff with the characters, so what, who cares??) but at the same time, you know he just has to be punished at some point! But..yeah. That's done. And I think the next season isn't coming for like 2 years. So that's great. But! Mad Men started last night..so I have something to watch. Even though I have to wait til next week, and can't binge watch..it's still something okay! I think tomorrow or the next day I must start Parks and Rec from the beginning. I did start out watching it when it first came on, but I lost interest, or just stopped watching for some reason. I need a funny show after HOC.
But yeah, life, right?
Sorry. I'm sleepy.

Wonder if I..gave an oreo.

Oh lawd. I fell offa the bandwagon again. And I said I liked every other day! Well, I guess not too much has happened that I felt like blogging about! I went to a friend's baby shower this weekend. It was really fun. I've known Lacey for a long time. It's so funny to see her act so differently now that she's pregnant..different in a good way! This weekend brings another baby shower..this one is in Mississippi and I can't wait to go and stay there this wknd. I mean it's only one night away..but I haven't had one night away in forever. It almost seems like a vacation! Other than that..I just been workin like a crazy person and that's about it. I have lots of crazy patients right now, which makes for an interesting day. It's always a good time.
Good day.
I said good day!

Do you wanna build a snowman..?

So glad this week is over! Y'all. I have so many lists from every day this week, and I'm so happy that I did everything on those lists!! Today felt like a mad dash to get everything done, but I did it! Now I just have a baby shower tomorrow, and then I can just turn my brain off (except for the paperwork I need to do..maybe I'll throw caution to the wind and do it Sunday night! I'm wild that way.) and not have to think about anything. Ya know what's weird? Sometimes if I catch myself day dreaming or not thinking about anything in particular, I force my brain to stop because surely there's something I need to be thinking or worrying about. Or I'm convinced that I must have forgotten something or to do something, and that's why I'm just thinking about nothing. Does anyone else do that? I try to make myself stop..but the truth is that, if I don't constantly stay on top of my game (at least during the week) then my stuff won't get done. Wah wah I don't wanna be an adult. Wah wah I don't want to be a single adult who has to juggle everysinglething by myself. Boo freakin hoo! I yell that at myself sometimes for whining, ha! I'm pretty sure I'm slowly going insane. I mean..aren't we all? Maybe I'd better stop.
I secretly just want to stay up all night and finish House Of Cards. Well, maybe just one episode. Does anyone watch Portlandia? Well, I'm pretty much obsessed with it..and there's a scene (sketch? Idk.) where this couple decides to only watch one episode of Battlestar Galactica..which turns into like a month long session of watching it non stop and they lose their jobs because they can't stop watching and at the end they try to find the man who wrote it so that he can make another episode. Well, I feel like that with HOC right now. I pretty much feel that way about every show that I start to watch on Netflix. Damn you, Netflix!!
Okay. Really. Just gonna go watch one episode..

Can we start it all over again, this morning?

Outpatient.
Home Health.
Outpatient.
Paycheck?
Maybe.

Slow down, life! And just stop costing so much to live.
Today, I am stressed out.

I don't want to know the reasons why Love keeps right on walking down the line..

Did anyone see that sketch on SNL with Paul Rudd? With this Fleetwood Mac song on it? I love Paul Rudd. His dance moves in this sketch are the best ever! I saved that episode on my DVR so I can watch it whenever I want. Cuz I do what I want! And sometimes I enjoy SNL. So what, who cayes!

This was a good weekend. Friday night I went to see Weezer play at the River Center. I haven't been to  a show or concert in so long, I really miss it. I probably felt like the oldest person there, but whatever! At least I'm old enough to remember when they were a popular band..? They really put on a great show. And I think I knew almost every song they sang. I forgot about so many songs! But I love when that happens. Saturday morning I woke up early and drove to Amite for a training session for my dog..it went really well. She's a smart dog, but she's SO wild. After last night's wedding, and going to bed at 2 am, I was completely exhausted. I've been so busy lately and haven't had a day to just sleep in and clean or just really do what I want in I can't remember how long. And today was so pretty. And we ate crawfish. And the sun was out. And it was a really good day.

Now off to binge watch House of Cards!

Love, love, love, you are my shelter..

I keep skipping days! But I don't mean to! I think every other day suits me better. I actually didn't really have anything to post about last night. Had a super busy and stressful day, followed by a shared bottle of red wine and Frozen with the roommie. So, a good night to end a horrible day. Today is another busy day..I'm on my lunch break now, about to head out soon to see a HH patient. I really like my Home Health job. I love the company I work for and the PTs I work with. But all of the driving is starting to get to me! Thank God the pay is really good or else I'd be out of there for sure!
I'm not sure if any of you that read this follow or read the Living Proof Ministry blog (Beth Moore's blog), but you should! I wanted to share what I read in the last one, because it was so on point with my life. The scriptures are from the Message bible, and it's Romans 4:13-25. It's kind of long, but like she says in her blog, "you'll never waste a minute in God's word":

“That famous promise God gave Abraham—that he and his children would possess the earth—was not given because of something Abraham did or would do. It was based on God’s decision to put everything together for him, which Abraham then entered when he believed. If those who get what God gives them only get it by doing everything they are told to do and filling out all the right forms properly signed, that eliminates personal trust completely and turns the promise into an ironclad contract! That’s not a holy promise; that’s a business deal. A contract drawn up by a hard-nosed lawyer and with plenty of fine print only makes sure that you will never be able to collect. But if there is no contract in the first place, simply a promise—and God’s promise at that—you can’t break it.

This is why the fulfillment of God’s promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does. God’s promise arrives as pure gift. That’s the only way everyone can be sure to get in on it, those who keep the religious traditions and those who have never heard of them. For Abraham is father of us all. He is not our racial father—that’s reading the story backward. He is our faith father.

We call Abraham “father” not because he got God’s attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn’t that what we’ve always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, “I set you up as father of many peoples”? Abraham was first named “father” and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God himself said to him, “You’re going to have a big family, Abraham!”

Abraham didn’t focus on his own impotence and say, “It’s hopeless. This hundred-year-old body could never father a child.” Nor did he survey Sarah’s decades of infertility and give up. He didn’t tiptoe around God’s promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what he had said. That’s why it is said, “Abraham was declared fit before God by trusting God to set him right.” But it’s not just Abraham; it’s also us! The same thing gets said about us when we embrace and believe the One who brought Jesus to life when the conditions were equally hopeless. The sacrificed Jesus made us fit for God, set us right with God.”

She goes on to write:

 I don’t know how your day, your week, your month or your year is going, but rest in the truth that God made and is making all things new and right through Jesus Christ. And that includes us. Our faith. Embrace God. Embrace what He’s doing. Embrace what He has done. Embrace what He is going to do. Whether you’re currently sitting in the valley or perched on a mountain top, “believe the One who brought Jesus to life when conditions were equally hopeless!” If you know Jesus as your personal Savior, rest in knowing that you are set right with God.

I'm gonna try to rest in the truth.