It's been awhile since I've updated this thing..so here is my attempt to keep my thoughts going on one track (which I'm horrible at-you would know if you've ever had a conversation with me ha!) I get sidetracked very easily..thanks mom, I get that from you-it's not always a bad thing :]
Tonight my husband flew out of town to Nashville to see one of his favorite bands for their album release party..the band he is going to see is Red-one of his favorites..not so much one of mine. We are very different..but I love him so much. I never dreamed I would be living this life I'm living..I still can't believe I'm about to turn 27..!! I feel like I haven't lived very much in my 27 years..But I am learning new things about myself every day.
Before I got married..I had all of these ideas of what I thought marriage would be like. I knew that it wasn't going to be perfect (or what I imagine perfect to be) and I knew it wasn't going to be like this fairy tale all of the time. For some reason I kind of thought that I would just change..that my husband and I would be on the same page about most things and that I would be protected from a lot of things (sorry I'm being very vague right now..) But I learned that in marrying someone so very different from myself, that I had to re think some things..and compromise on some other things. We aren't really on the same page right now spiritually..but I know that will change one day..I think the biggest thing I am learning right now is patience. We have all of these plans for our life and they are happening at a very...slow..pace. I'm trying to live in this moment and appreciate it, because I know the blessings that God has for us in the future..and they will happen in His timing, not ours. I am also learning that being married kind of brings out the worst in us sometimes and that we have to deal with it..because if we don't it becomes this huge elephant in the room and it just pushes us farther apart from one another. I still have a lot of the same issues that I did before we got married..darn they didn't just disappear on our wedding day..they are still there under the surface needing to be dealt with. Judah can't solve all of my issues-that's what I meant when I said that I felt like I would be protected from some things-some issues. But he can't do a thing about them 1) because they have nothing to do with him 2) Only God can do that. But..we are all works in progress..every day until the day that we depart from this earth..we can try and try to live up to perfection-or what we think perfection is..but it's just a daily process!
Oh I think that was enough rambling for right now..just some of my thoughts :]
I think every woman needs to read this book by Beth Moore..thanks to my sister-in-law, Steph for letting me borrow it! It's called So Long Insecurity and it's pretty great. This book deals with things that every single woman on the planet deals with on a daily basis..things that we say and do and we don't even realize it. We don't realize the damage we are doing to our souls..and the people around us by our actions and words. Check it out!
That's enough for now..hopefully will update more often on here!
