I'm lost without you..

Wow guys, we suck at Ides of March blogging challenge.
I mean, I've pretty much been really busy working and watching Parks and Rec every other waking moment of the week. It's only been 5 days and I've watched 5 seasons so...
I can't help it! I get sucked in! So sue me! Geez. I mean, I can't help it if Leslie Knope is my spirit animal and I'm her and she's me..mostly. But really.
Other than that, I've pretty much been procrastinating/avoiding making big decisions for my life. No biggie.
(the episodes are only 20 minutes so stop judging me)

Given a chance, I'm gonna be somebody..

This weekend went by so fast..I'm hoping this week goes by just as quick. Fun weekends always go by too fast! Although, I'm always so busy that everything lately just feels like a blur. I think all of the baby showers are over, now bring on the weddings! This past weekend I spent Saturday and Sunday in Mississippi with the lifelong BFF. It's so bizarre to me to see her pregnant. But I'm very happy for her. I know she'll be a great mom. We had fun together..we got to have brunch on Sunday and just talk and catch up. It's funny how we go for so long without talking and when we see each other we just have too much to say and 2 days just isn't enough to get it all out. I'm hoping to visit shortly after the baby is born at some point in June.
This weekend is Easter! I am doing the Color Run Saturday morning, then we are having a family crawfish boil..Sunday is the big day and then food and more family. I know it hasn't been that long since Christmas, but for some reason it feels like forever since I've seen my fam! I keep forgetting that I'm supposed to make the potato casserole that we can't seem to go one holiday without having and then I do that thing where I remember I am kind of stressed out about something, and what was it? Oh yeah, potatoes, Don't forget to make the dang potatoes!! (<--wow.)
In other news, today I finished watching House of Cards. I liked it a lot! I mean, there are some crazy things that happen..but it just sucks you in. It feels like in BB, how the writers (or producers, or directors, or whoever "they" are) make you like Walt, even though he is a "bad guy." It's the same for HOC, it's like, you don't want to see him fail after everything you've been through together, (I mean, sometimes I feel like I go through all of the stuff with the characters, so what, who cares??) but at the same time, you know he just has to be punished at some point! But..yeah. That's done. And I think the next season isn't coming for like 2 years. So that's great. But! Mad Men started last night..so I have something to watch. Even though I have to wait til next week, and can't binge watch..it's still something okay! I think tomorrow or the next day I must start Parks and Rec from the beginning. I did start out watching it when it first came on, but I lost interest, or just stopped watching for some reason. I need a funny show after HOC.
But yeah, life, right?
Sorry. I'm sleepy.

Wonder if I..gave an oreo.

Oh lawd. I fell offa the bandwagon again. And I said I liked every other day! Well, I guess not too much has happened that I felt like blogging about! I went to a friend's baby shower this weekend. It was really fun. I've known Lacey for a long time. It's so funny to see her act so differently now that she's pregnant..different in a good way! This weekend brings another baby shower..this one is in Mississippi and I can't wait to go and stay there this wknd. I mean it's only one night away..but I haven't had one night away in forever. It almost seems like a vacation! Other than that..I just been workin like a crazy person and that's about it. I have lots of crazy patients right now, which makes for an interesting day. It's always a good time.
Good day.
I said good day!

Do you wanna build a snowman..?

So glad this week is over! Y'all. I have so many lists from every day this week, and I'm so happy that I did everything on those lists!! Today felt like a mad dash to get everything done, but I did it! Now I just have a baby shower tomorrow, and then I can just turn my brain off (except for the paperwork I need to do..maybe I'll throw caution to the wind and do it Sunday night! I'm wild that way.) and not have to think about anything. Ya know what's weird? Sometimes if I catch myself day dreaming or not thinking about anything in particular, I force my brain to stop because surely there's something I need to be thinking or worrying about. Or I'm convinced that I must have forgotten something or to do something, and that's why I'm just thinking about nothing. Does anyone else do that? I try to make myself stop..but the truth is that, if I don't constantly stay on top of my game (at least during the week) then my stuff won't get done. Wah wah I don't wanna be an adult. Wah wah I don't want to be a single adult who has to juggle everysinglething by myself. Boo freakin hoo! I yell that at myself sometimes for whining, ha! I'm pretty sure I'm slowly going insane. I mean..aren't we all? Maybe I'd better stop.
I secretly just want to stay up all night and finish House Of Cards. Well, maybe just one episode. Does anyone watch Portlandia? Well, I'm pretty much obsessed with it..and there's a scene (sketch? Idk.) where this couple decides to only watch one episode of Battlestar Galactica..which turns into like a month long session of watching it non stop and they lose their jobs because they can't stop watching and at the end they try to find the man who wrote it so that he can make another episode. Well, I feel like that with HOC right now. I pretty much feel that way about every show that I start to watch on Netflix. Damn you, Netflix!!
Okay. Really. Just gonna go watch one episode..

Can we start it all over again, this morning?

Outpatient.
Home Health.
Outpatient.
Paycheck?
Maybe.

Slow down, life! And just stop costing so much to live.
Today, I am stressed out.

I don't want to know the reasons why Love keeps right on walking down the line..

Did anyone see that sketch on SNL with Paul Rudd? With this Fleetwood Mac song on it? I love Paul Rudd. His dance moves in this sketch are the best ever! I saved that episode on my DVR so I can watch it whenever I want. Cuz I do what I want! And sometimes I enjoy SNL. So what, who cayes!

This was a good weekend. Friday night I went to see Weezer play at the River Center. I haven't been to  a show or concert in so long, I really miss it. I probably felt like the oldest person there, but whatever! At least I'm old enough to remember when they were a popular band..? They really put on a great show. And I think I knew almost every song they sang. I forgot about so many songs! But I love when that happens. Saturday morning I woke up early and drove to Amite for a training session for my dog..it went really well. She's a smart dog, but she's SO wild. After last night's wedding, and going to bed at 2 am, I was completely exhausted. I've been so busy lately and haven't had a day to just sleep in and clean or just really do what I want in I can't remember how long. And today was so pretty. And we ate crawfish. And the sun was out. And it was a really good day.

Now off to binge watch House of Cards!

Love, love, love, you are my shelter..

I keep skipping days! But I don't mean to! I think every other day suits me better. I actually didn't really have anything to post about last night. Had a super busy and stressful day, followed by a shared bottle of red wine and Frozen with the roommie. So, a good night to end a horrible day. Today is another busy day..I'm on my lunch break now, about to head out soon to see a HH patient. I really like my Home Health job. I love the company I work for and the PTs I work with. But all of the driving is starting to get to me! Thank God the pay is really good or else I'd be out of there for sure!
I'm not sure if any of you that read this follow or read the Living Proof Ministry blog (Beth Moore's blog), but you should! I wanted to share what I read in the last one, because it was so on point with my life. The scriptures are from the Message bible, and it's Romans 4:13-25. It's kind of long, but like she says in her blog, "you'll never waste a minute in God's word":

“That famous promise God gave Abraham—that he and his children would possess the earth—was not given because of something Abraham did or would do. It was based on God’s decision to put everything together for him, which Abraham then entered when he believed. If those who get what God gives them only get it by doing everything they are told to do and filling out all the right forms properly signed, that eliminates personal trust completely and turns the promise into an ironclad contract! That’s not a holy promise; that’s a business deal. A contract drawn up by a hard-nosed lawyer and with plenty of fine print only makes sure that you will never be able to collect. But if there is no contract in the first place, simply a promise—and God’s promise at that—you can’t break it.

This is why the fulfillment of God’s promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does. God’s promise arrives as pure gift. That’s the only way everyone can be sure to get in on it, those who keep the religious traditions and those who have never heard of them. For Abraham is father of us all. He is not our racial father—that’s reading the story backward. He is our faith father.

We call Abraham “father” not because he got God’s attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn’t that what we’ve always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, “I set you up as father of many peoples”? Abraham was first named “father” and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn’t do but on what God said he would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God himself said to him, “You’re going to have a big family, Abraham!”

Abraham didn’t focus on his own impotence and say, “It’s hopeless. This hundred-year-old body could never father a child.” Nor did he survey Sarah’s decades of infertility and give up. He didn’t tiptoe around God’s promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what he had said. That’s why it is said, “Abraham was declared fit before God by trusting God to set him right.” But it’s not just Abraham; it’s also us! The same thing gets said about us when we embrace and believe the One who brought Jesus to life when the conditions were equally hopeless. The sacrificed Jesus made us fit for God, set us right with God.”

She goes on to write:

 I don’t know how your day, your week, your month or your year is going, but rest in the truth that God made and is making all things new and right through Jesus Christ. And that includes us. Our faith. Embrace God. Embrace what He’s doing. Embrace what He has done. Embrace what He is going to do. Whether you’re currently sitting in the valley or perched on a mountain top, “believe the One who brought Jesus to life when conditions were equally hopeless!” If you know Jesus as your personal Savior, rest in knowing that you are set right with God.

I'm gonna try to rest in the truth.

'Cause I don't wanna lose you now..

I feel like blogging every day is a lot. I mean..maybe it makes up for not blogging at all the rest of the year, ha!

But really..right now..my life is just filled with lots of ups and downs. And I guess stand-stills, too. Just like everyone else. Mostly just stand-stills. I feel like my job situation is probably just the worst part..and everything else is really okay. I mean..I'm really struggling. It's hard for me to let go of a place I've worked at for so long. But it's more of a nostalgic thing maybe? Idk. I don't like how it is now. I liked how it was 5-10 years ago. But it will never be that again. I also feel like I've really helped build that company..I've put everything into my job over the years because I've loved working there. I love the laid backness of the place. I love the freedom I have. If I can just get past all of this, maybe it will be easier for me to leave. I actually have noticed there is a job opening in New Roads..I'm not really sure if it's what I want to be doing..It's a skilled nursing facility..I don't really have any experience with that..but I'm always up for something new. The most appealing part of the job is the medical/dental and matching 401k plans..but I'm thinking they are probably wanting to hire someone more experienced in this field, OR, as the ad stated, a new graduate. That they can pay base pay to. Ugh. Dumb.

What's up with dudes these days? All of the ones that I want to stay far away from me won't leave me alone. The one or two really nice guys that I actually would like to hang out with ain't feelin it. But seriously. Every single other one..I'm not tryin to sound like a snob or anything, but fa real! All of the weirdos! Not that I'm worried about it or even ready to trust a guy again..but a nice boy would be nice!

Who wouldn't wanna be me..

Seriously. This weekend. Can you just be over?? Why is everything in my life right now so crazy?? Just when I feel like I can start to breathe again, everything falls apart. I promise I'm not depressed. I just wanna be whiny okay! geez! I feel like I just want to hibernate for an entire week and sleep all day and watch tv and read books and not work. ever. ever. ever. What's the point in working my butt off at 2 jobs and still making the same amount of money, which is just enough to get by? I'm hoping another door will open soon..which I'm sure it will. because God always comes through.
Last night I drove myself and my mom and my sister in law to the movies. Annnnd I lost my car key. After searching until almost midnight, we gave up and got another ride home. I had to leave my car overnight in another city 45 minutes away from my home. Today my mom and I searched the restaurant where we ate, the movie theater (with a flashlight!!) (btw, the floor under the seats at the movies is completely disgusting and I'm convinced they don't clean under there like ever), and everywhere in between, we decided to call pop a lock. So the guy came and I got some things that I needed out of my car, and racked my brain to decide where I could pull the money from to have another key made and have Acura program it to my car (apparently all of this crap costs like $500. Just to have a dumb key made!!). I was having an inner freak out moment. My mom took me home and we decided I would use her car to get to work tomorrow-well the second we pull into the driveway, the security guard from Perkins Rowe calls me and tells me they found my key at the restaurant! I mean..we had been back at the restaurant last night and today about 4 times and I know the manager was probably sick of seeing us.  But thank God for my amazing Galbo girls who took care of the situation for me and picked up my car! I am so lucky to have people around me that know when I'm freaking out, and completely take the reins. I mean..after everything is said and done I always get upset at myself because I sort of go into this hopeless state when things happen and seriously my amazing friends and family just take care of me. I know I can be self absorbed a lot of the time..but really..I would do the same for any one of them! So to Ashleigh and Stacy and mom and Stephanie and Crystal and her sister and his husband, I love you all and thank you so much for helping me!

She's gonna listen to her heart..

I'm so happy that the Ides of March blogging challenge still stands! I like blogging..and I like reading everyone else's blogs. Except..I can't ever remember Olivia's blog and if someone has it can they please paste the link or let me know? Maybe she doesn't even blog anymore? I don't know. I just like to know what everyone is up to.
As I've blogged recently, my life is so crazy. Today, I only had to work a half day, then I was going to see one HH patient. Turns out, she couldn't be seen today, so I actually had the afternoon off! I don't even know what to do with myself..no, really..what do people do with themselves when they aren't at work?? I have a hard time just relaxing..I like to work and keep busy. Even if I'm watching TV, it's mostly because it's something that I've DVR'd and need to delete it or it will just stay in my brain. I have a problem. I make lists for everything. I like to get things done people! I went over to my parent's house for awhile..I went outside for awhile and watched Charlie on his new tractor and took the trash out..I cleaned up a little in the house and vacuumed. I got my schedule down for tomorrow. I was about to go take the dogs for a walk (more like a sprint..Chai drags me behind her but she has to be on a leash with a harness!!) until I remembered that I should blog! So..fun day, right?? In about an hour I'll be heading to meet Angelle to get a run in. We are doing a 4 mile race this Saturday in New Roads. I'm hoping the weather will be nice. But not hot. And not rainy. The perfect run for me, would be a 50 degree day. I can't stand to be hot when I run. If I weren't so self conscious I would be one of those girls running in their sports bra down the road.
I'm boring..sorry! Other than the race, we are having family dinner on Friday night..and girls night on Saturday night to see Divergent. I read the books last year and of course I loved them. Just give me any YA book. I promise I'll like it haha. I also just finished reading White Oleander..I liked it. Obviously there are some messed up things that happen to the main character. But, the way the book is written..it's very beautiful. It makes you fall in love with words. Is that weird? Some people just know how to write a book. Like, I could probably use half of the sentences as quotes for life. Even though I don't agree with them..you just get sucked in. Well. I think that's all.

Just a mile outside of town..

Life is crazy sometimes. I feel like I can hardly take a breath right now. I've been so busy that I have no time to do anything that I love to do. I guess I shouldn't complain, it won't be like this forever. And I do like to be busy and active..but sheesh.
I've been working two jobs lately..outpatient clinic in the morning, and home health in the evenings. I don't think I knew what I was signing up for when I started doing HH. I guess I do like the flexibility of it, but at the same time, I do thrive better with a schedule! I like schedules. and lists. I have to start going over my work a few days before hands..read evaluations and decide how/what I'm going to do with the patient to follow out the plan of care. I have to schedule the patients by looking on my GPS to see what my quickest routes will be. I have to keep track of mileage. I have to speak to worried family members on a daily basis. I have to figure out ways to trick (maybe coerce is a better word?) patients into doing what I need them to do. I have to make sure there aren't any type of bed sores, high blood pressure, etc going on..most of these people are elderly and pretty fragile. Something so easy can go unnoticed and land them back in the hospital. I know all of this sounds so boring..but it's my life right now! After I see the patients, I have to go home and do charting (which takes me about an hour or a little more) and then try to fit in a run if I can with Angelle..by then I have no desire to cook or clean or read or do any of the other things I enjoy. I find myself staying up til midnight just so I can read a chapter of a book. Thank God the time just changed so I can have an extra hour! I actually had a couple free hours yesterday..I took Chai for a walk/run..I need to do that more often. Poor puppy is just fenced in all day with no one to play with! Sometimes it makes me feel guilty.
This is a boring post. I'm sorry.
This weekend I have to sit in a continuing education class all day Saturday and Sunday. Sunday I have to race home (the class is in Lafayette) and make it to Fleet Feet in Baton Rouge by 5 because Angelle and I are doing a St. Paddy's day run! I know I'll be ready to go home, but I think it will be fun. It's a 3.17 mile race. We have only had time to fit in 2 runs this week, but I think we'll do fine. Next weekend we are doing a 4 mile race in New Roads, which should be pretty fun as well.
That's pretty much my life lately! Can't tell you what the last movie I saw was. Last album I bought was Beck a few weeks ago, and I still am listening to it. I can't stop. All I do is drive all day long so I must have good jams to listen to! Today, it took me an hour and a half to get home. I listened to Justin Timberlake the whole way. That made it better. okay. bye.