'Cause I don't wanna lose you now..

I feel like blogging every day is a lot. I mean..maybe it makes up for not blogging at all the rest of the year, ha!

But really..right now..my life is just filled with lots of ups and downs. And I guess stand-stills, too. Just like everyone else. Mostly just stand-stills. I feel like my job situation is probably just the worst part..and everything else is really okay. I mean..I'm really struggling. It's hard for me to let go of a place I've worked at for so long. But it's more of a nostalgic thing maybe? Idk. I don't like how it is now. I liked how it was 5-10 years ago. But it will never be that again. I also feel like I've really helped build that company..I've put everything into my job over the years because I've loved working there. I love the laid backness of the place. I love the freedom I have. If I can just get past all of this, maybe it will be easier for me to leave. I actually have noticed there is a job opening in New Roads..I'm not really sure if it's what I want to be doing..It's a skilled nursing facility..I don't really have any experience with that..but I'm always up for something new. The most appealing part of the job is the medical/dental and matching 401k plans..but I'm thinking they are probably wanting to hire someone more experienced in this field, OR, as the ad stated, a new graduate. That they can pay base pay to. Ugh. Dumb.

What's up with dudes these days? All of the ones that I want to stay far away from me won't leave me alone. The one or two really nice guys that I actually would like to hang out with ain't feelin it. But seriously. Every single other one..I'm not tryin to sound like a snob or anything, but fa real! All of the weirdos! Not that I'm worried about it or even ready to trust a guy again..but a nice boy would be nice!