Time for an update! I hate that I don't blog more regularly. I feel like we should all have another blogging challenge later in the year..especially with certain people moving far far away!
Speaking of people moving..my brother and sister in law will be here in less than a month! I am beyond excited about it. I miss them so much and can't wait til they're back in da bayou state. Also, I will be getting a room mate for the first time in about 4 years. So that should be interesting. I hope I'm not too set in my ways/OCD to be able to live with someone else. I always like to think that I'm pretty laid back..but actually I can be pretty uptight about a lot of things..surprise surprise!(;-) I can always tell when I'm being uptight or OCD or whatever ya wanna call it..but I am a creature of severe habits. When my (almost ex..) husband separated..almost a year ago, I was so scared to be by myself. I wasn't scared that someone would break in or anything like that..I just was scared that I would be lonely and forgotten. Which was pretty dumb..my parents and brother's family live only about 8-10 miles from here. But I think that that was the way that God wanted it to be for me..He needed to get me by myself so that I would have to go through everything without any of my crutches. I just had Him to lean on..I know that my family loves me more than anything and that they are always there for me to talk to, and I did a lot..but I kind of felt like it was this journey that I was meant to go on without relying too much on other people. Because that's what I've done my whole life. I have always relied on other men..I have always had a boyfriend ever since I can remember. They were like idols to me and I leaned on them instead of on Jesus for all of my emotional security..I found 3 of my old diaries this weekend that I had starting at 10 years old. And I had written every day religiously for 3 years..and every single day I wrote something about a boy. I mean, I know that's not uncommon but at 10 years old? Also, at 10 years old, I would write things like "I am going to go on a diet so I can lose weight and not be fat anymore"..I hope that if I have a daughter one day..that at 10 years old she will not think she's 'fat' (I wasn't) or even think about that. I know I'm starting to ramble. I didn't know what I wanted to blog about..just started typing.
Shark Week is on. I don't know why I watch it, because then when I go to Grand Isle and we go swimming on the beach, all I think about are those Great White sharks who jump in the air. I mean, when's the last time there was a shark attack on the beach there?? Speaking of the beach..another reason I can't wait for my brother to get home is that we are going to go to Grand Isle! and go crabbing! and fishing! and maybe swim with our dogs..I'm so sad about the bacteria in the water. I was really looking forward to letting Chai swim for the first time there. She is at the vet today, getting spayed. It's so weird not having a cute bunny hopping all over my house. It's a huge break for me, but I miss her.
I'm pretty sure that I told a lot of people about the POD show that Crystal and I went to last week..I know people think we are crazy because we have seen them 3 times in that past year..but I'm just making up for not ever seeing them my whole life! And if they come back anywhere near here again, you can guarantee that we will be on the front row, drinking Sonny's water, singing in the microphone, and dancing to/singing every word to every single song. It's hard no to love them when you meet them..this time Sonny came out and talked to us for a long time. He told us stories about people in other bands..he told us that the singer from Papa Roach just recently got saved and told us about a conversation they had not too long ago. He's just right in the middle of everything and he's so humble and just a real person. We watched him talk to a girl who was obviously crazy..or on something..or manic..I don't know, she was just pretty nuts. She had no shoes..she was talking to herself and in her own little world. While we were talking to Sonny, he noticed that she was still there, sitting on a curb in the parking lot. He told us that we needed to go talk to her and pray for her..so we went over and Crystal talked to her for a long time. I just love that about her. Her heart breaks for people that are different or unaccepted..I can promise you that I wouldn't have looked twice at this girl. She was saying so many crazy things..eventually, we prayed for her. Sonny didn't pray, he just stood behind us and agreed with what we were praying for. (After we prayed, the girl kept saying crazy things..but like Crystal told me..we just planted a seed. Maybe nothing will happen right away or anytime soon..but we planted a seed and sowed into her..) It was such a great night. You could tell that Sonny was so tired and probably just wanted to go to bed..but he knows that he needs to pour into this generation and spend time with young people. I'm so happy that we got to experience that..sometimes I just think about Heaven..and I just know that we are going to see each other there..and see him there too. We are all brothers and sisters and it's awesome to know that we will spend an eternity together. Well. Enough rambles. I'm gonna go enjoy Chai-free time.
PS-I'm caught up with Breaking Bad and omg. Cannot WAIT til Sunday night to start the next (and last :( ) season!!!!!!
