Late night thoughts..

So..I really like having this blog..even if no one reads it..it feels good to just think something and type it out. Especially when I have been feeling a certain way or praying about a certain thing for a long time. I have been thinking lately that I am very lucky to have grown up the way I did..to have had a mother who read us scriptures everrrry morning before school, and taught us how to..well, be a christian. I am so happy that she really taught us to look at the heart of every matter..

She taught us how important it is to have a real relationship with Jesus..not just to be a religious person. She taught us not to be prideful..after all, we are all the same at the core of our beings..God made each and every one of us in HIS image..therefore not one is better than the other..not one is prettier, smarter, skinnier..etc. He says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. On that subject, I only realized recently how negative I am towards myself, and how negative other people are towards themselves..if God made us in HIS image, when we insult ourselves, we are insulting Him..scary thought. I have also been thinking/repenting a lot lately for unforgiveness. God forgave us first, so we must forgive! In order to live a totally blameless life before God..you have to forgive..even if I feel like I'm wronged in the situation..I just think about the day that I have to stand before the Lord..I really don't think that He's going to sit there and listen to me give some excuse about being hurt, etc. I want to say that I was able to forgive, and not hold a grudge. I can only speak for myself, and how I reacted..God will deal with the other person..

I guess I am very lucky to know the Lord, to have a real relationship with him. Sometimes it frustrates me so much to see things, and to wish that other people could see the same things I see..I may be quiet sometimes..but I really have a lot to say! I was always scared to say what I really believed until my whole world came crashing down and all I had left..was Jesus. Everything that I thought was supposed to be perfect all crumbled to pieces..that's when I realized how selfish I've been..towards everyone..God, my friends and family, and to myself. I'm still working on picking up all of the pieces..but this time I have Someone who will pick them all up for me and make them whole again :]

(Sorry for the cheesiness..)

That's all for now. 

Goodnight!