All I am is Yours..

Let's see. Seems like awhile since I've blogged. I feel like a million things have happened since I last blogged. Well guess I'll have to start with my job situation..I am currently looking for a new job..after a looonnngg time of going back and forth, and fighting it, I finally realized that it's just time for me to move on. I have learned so many things and had the best times at my current job..however, the times, they are a changin, and it's time to move on. I'm pretty terrified about this..completely out of my comfort zone..so, if you are reading this, please pray for me that I can have the strength and courage to get out there and find something new!
Last week, I went to Disneyworld for the first time ever! I had the best time..it was everything and more than I wished it would be. I haven't been on a roller coaster ride, or any theme park for that matter for honestly probably 11-12 years..Needless to say, I was excited. We went non-stop from 8 in the morning til midnight or later on some nights. I was completely exhausted and so tired every day, but it was so worth it. It really is the happiest place on earth! I loved going to Epcot and Hollywood studios, but my favorite part was The Magic Kingdom. Nothing beats it! The fireworks and light show above (and on) the castle really does take your breath away (the first time you see it, at least). It's hard to believe that they spend that much $ on a daily basis on fireworks (for each park) and on the millions of employees that they have. We also went to Universal Studios for a day, and that was really great too. It's not Disney, but it is really fun. I finally got to try butterbeer at the Wizarding World of Harry Potter..it was so good..I want more I want more..that was our quote for the entire trip (besides "Life is Good") because you do need more. I think I left out that we went to Animal Kingdom for a day too..it rained most of that day, but it was fun too! We went on a safari there and saw some giraffes running and playing..I think that was the best part. I've never seen a giraffe run! They look like they're galloping clumsily in slow motion. One of the roller coasters in this park was probably one of my favorites..it's called Everest and it's so scary and fun and terrifying and I laughed the entire time because I just couldn't handle myself. heh. I came home very hoarse. I think I could write a book on this trip, so I'll just leave it at this: Funnest trip of my life.
Last night I stayed up very late, because today is Memorial Day and I don't have work! I was reading my bible..and ya know how sometimes you have read the same story so many times in your life, but one time you read it..and something sort of sticks out to you? Like it's just something small, but it's something you always have just read over and not thought too much about it. Well I was reading the story in Genesis about how God tested Abraham, and asked him to sacrifice his son, Isaac. He didn't even question God..he just did it. Isaac was his promise..the son that God had promised to him and Sarah. Well, after an angel came to Abraham and told him not to sacrifice his son..he looked up and there was a ram to sacrifice instead. Then Abraham called the place "The Lord Will Provide." It just made me stop and think a few minutes about how many people I know that have had to sacrifice their dreams..their promises. But guess what? When you do that, The Lord will provide. I know how very hard and scary it can be to sacrifice something or let go of something that God promised to you..and I can promise you that if you have the strength to let it go..to give that dream or that promise back to God..he WILL provide for you. It may not be the way that you wanted or thought he would provide for you..but he does. This probably sounds so elementary to most people..but until you actually have to go through this in your own life, it's not real to you. Maybe that's why this time it kind of stuck out to me. I don't know all of the ways that he will provide for me..but I have the hope and the faith that he will..how he wants to..in his timing. I know that there is a reason that I had to go through everything I did..it really totally changed me and who I am. But that needed to happen.
Enough of all of the deep stuff! I have so many shows to catch up on my DVR..and also the last season of Arrested Development to finish..and some more episodes of Mad Men to watch..and Eisley to listen to..just so many things. Hope you people are all having a fun Memorial Day with family and hopefully at a beach or next to a pool!

You ain't seen nothin yet..

Another year older. sigh. I think for the first time I actually FEEL older..I never have felt that way before. I guess it's been a heavy year for me. So many changes. As a result, I have changed. So much, in so many ways. I think if I knew a year ago where I am today, I would have probably had a panic attack! But. I'm here. I made it! One more year in my twenties..my brother told me tonight that I needed to live it up. Ha! I think I've done enough living in my twenties to kind of calm down a little bit. Or maybe not ;)
I guess my birthday was bittersweet this year. It's the first time in a LONG time that I have been single for my bday. It's just not the same..although my family and friends for sure made up for it! I had a great time spending time with so many different friends and family members over the past week. That's better than getting all the presents in the world. I swear, I think my love language is kind of changing..I don't know if that's possible? But..I really used to be so materialistic (I realize that this does change with age for most people-for the most part!)..but I really think that I value people and experiences more now that I have before. I really didn't care this year if I got one gift. Looking back at the past few years..the horrible situation I was in..I think maybe I turned into a shop-a-holic because it was like my addiction..everything in my life sucked, but I could go shopping and it would feel better. For a day or 2..then I needed to buy something again. I totally understand how some people have that problem! I didn't want to think about anything that was really going on in my life. Of course, going from 2 (very large) incomes to one has definitely made me hold the reigns on the spending. But ya know it was starting to get out of control.
I also just wanna say again Happy Mother's Day to my mom..she helped me plant some pretty flowers today AND she gave me my first sewing machine! I'm both excited and overwhelmed at the thought of learning how to sew. (I get overwhelmed really easy ha!) But yeah, she's a great mom..I know she had a tough time with me growing up..I wasn't perfect like my brothers ;P jk jk..but I was a handful and I know it. The wild child. We somehow made it through without killing each other. She's been a great listener/advice giver..very patient and kind and giving of her time. Couldn't ask for a better mom!

Rep the streets you ride on.

Wah after the Ides of March I kind of fell off of the blogging wagon. Well let me just fix that with a really long post!
This week just so happens to be my birthday week. My cousins/friends and I had a small but really fun early sort of party last Friday since they will all be busy/out of town for my actual birthday. It was fun and involved lots of guacamole and queso and tacos and daquiris. And a Justin Timbercake. You see, there is nothing in the world that can compare to a Justin Timbercake on one's birthday. It was the best I'm-not-30-yet birthday cake I've ever seen!
On Saturday my friend and I decided that we would go rock climbing at an indoor place in Lafayette. I have never done that before sooo..well I was scared. Because I'm a baby and scared of everything. (I read this thing one time that said that if you teach your kids that fear-like of heights or extreme things- is an exciting feeling instead of a scary feeling, then they may not be as scared to try new things like that in life..I might try this with my kids one day because I'm such a fraidy cat!) So yeah, the first time I climbed like 3 feet off the floor and looked down and immediately freaked out and told Ethan to "LET ME DOWN LET ME DOWN NOW." Of course, he climbed to the top because he likes to do scary things and isn't a wus like me!! I tried again and made it-a little-higher. The third time I tried, I almost made it to the top. I had a tiny freak out moment when I realized that one of the rocks that I needed to place my foot on was missing..I sort of just stared at the wall for like 3 minutes. Then looked to my right, and there was a 5 year old scaling the wall like Spiderman..looked to my left, and there was an even younger boy doing the same thing. Yeah, I was on the kid's wall. So what, who cares! I made it (almost) to the top before I freaked out to come down. It was very hard. My arms were hurting so bad and were shaking because my upper body is so weak. My back and neck were even sore! We then went to the Crawfish Festival in Breaux Bridge, which was one of the worst experiences in my life. Rude people..bad food..just not a great experience.
On Monday night, my sister in law took me to see one of my favorite bands of all times, P.O.D. We found out about the show pretty last minute..and it was in Shreveport. So I managed to get off early and leave at about 3. We finally got there at about 7:30 after a few stops on the way (one may have been to a shoe store..because who wears sandals to a rock show where you might lose a toe or 7?? Crystal. That's who.) We went into the venue, which was a smoky bar/pool hall..and found the stage in the back. We were the only ones standing there. From this point on Crystal would not allow me to move because she just knew 500 people would run through the door at that very moment and push her out of her spot while I was in the bathroom or getting water. No one came. For like 20 more minutes. Then a very nice ginger boy came and stood by us..and I could tell what he was up to, but Crystal loves to find out people's life stories and fears and hopes and joys, so she had long conversations with him while I nodded my head and pretended to listen (the boy then told me I was beautiful and many other things throughout the whole show..wouldn't let his friend stand by my because I was "his friend", and then attempted to trade me P.O.D.'s set list for my phone #, after I clearly told him before the show that it was mines.)
So yeah..the only bad part about standing on the front row at a show is that you have to stand through all of the bands until the people you came to see come on. The first band included: A latino guitar playing screamer, a very skinny bassist that wore a batman shirt, batman beanie, and batman headphones, a chubby jersey wearing Fred Durst rapper, an Aaron Gillespie look-a-like on the drums, a mixed singer who had a baby voice (kind of like cocarosie but it was a male..), and a guy with a turntable...? I was so confused. It was bad. The second band had really dumb songs, but the singer had an amazing voice, and the guitar player was unreal..he was pretty gross, but he played the guitar with someone's cowboy boot..he was really really good.
I don't really know why I am making this story so long..but yeah..POD finally came out and Crystal and I were ready, both wearing our Whosoever T shirts..the singer pretty much immediately noticed and said "Nice shirts!" I probably almost died. It turns out that not many people knew every single song they sing..oh, but we do. It was so fun..The singer handed each of us the mic to sing parts of the songs..he gave us his water bottle after he had taken a sip..they pretty much paid attention to us the whole time and everyone was jealous and we liked that a lot. I also think that the keyboard player has amazing dreds and we thought he would get them stuck in the keys because he was so crazy. And I really would probably love to marry him. But ya know. They even sang both of our favorite songs.  After the show we stalked their bus, like usual, and waited for them to come out. They were super nice..they loved that we knew all of the songs and said they were watching us the whole time "rocking out" (I hate when people say that, but I made an exception this one time). We talked to everyone in the band and Sonny (the singer) asked to take a picture with us for his twitter (EEK!! It ended up on twitter and fb and IG EEEEk!!). We then squealed the whole way to the car and talked non stop for 4 hours while eating lots of junk food until we got home.
Again, I'm not sure why I made this post go on..I was actually going to write about something else..but I fear that I may have bored you all to death if you have even made it this far..so yeah.
Tomorrow night I'm having dinner with my friends from college, and Saturday I'm going to see The Great Gatsby (YAY!!) and going to another friend's house for my actual birthday. Then Sunday is Mother's Day and family bday dinner time. Excited for the weekend!