You ain't seen nothin yet..

Another year older. sigh. I think for the first time I actually FEEL older..I never have felt that way before. I guess it's been a heavy year for me. So many changes. As a result, I have changed. So much, in so many ways. I think if I knew a year ago where I am today, I would have probably had a panic attack! But. I'm here. I made it! One more year in my twenties..my brother told me tonight that I needed to live it up. Ha! I think I've done enough living in my twenties to kind of calm down a little bit. Or maybe not ;)
I guess my birthday was bittersweet this year. It's the first time in a LONG time that I have been single for my bday. It's just not the same..although my family and friends for sure made up for it! I had a great time spending time with so many different friends and family members over the past week. That's better than getting all the presents in the world. I swear, I think my love language is kind of changing..I don't know if that's possible? But..I really used to be so materialistic (I realize that this does change with age for most people-for the most part!)..but I really think that I value people and experiences more now that I have before. I really didn't care this year if I got one gift. Looking back at the past few years..the horrible situation I was in..I think maybe I turned into a shop-a-holic because it was like my addiction..everything in my life sucked, but I could go shopping and it would feel better. For a day or 2..then I needed to buy something again. I totally understand how some people have that problem! I didn't want to think about anything that was really going on in my life. Of course, going from 2 (very large) incomes to one has definitely made me hold the reigns on the spending. But ya know it was starting to get out of control.
I also just wanna say again Happy Mother's Day to my mom..she helped me plant some pretty flowers today AND she gave me my first sewing machine! I'm both excited and overwhelmed at the thought of learning how to sew. (I get overwhelmed really easy ha!) But yeah, she's a great mom..I know she had a tough time with me growing up..I wasn't perfect like my brothers ;P jk jk..but I was a handful and I know it. The wild child. We somehow made it through without killing each other. She's been a great listener/advice giver..very patient and kind and giving of her time. Couldn't ask for a better mom!