I'm just tryin to be a better version of me for You..

Biggest Loser finale! I can't keep up with too many TV shows..but I like to keep up with this one. I just think that it's very fulfilling. You get to watch the contestants transform into new people..not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. I'm sitting upstairs, snuggling with my Vega..thinking about Romans 8 while I watch this TV show..
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword...In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us...For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither the present nor the future, not any powers, neither height nor depth, not anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
I kind of skipped around a little..but that's definitely one of my favorite chapters in the bible...and I wish I could be more than a conqueror over the ice cream in the freezer that is calling my name right now..anyway, I was reading this last night after I got into a major fight with my husband..over something really stupid: watermelon. I'm not afraid to get a little (just a little) personal on my blog, so here is the silly story. I reallllly wanted some watermelon. I don't know what came over me. I just wanted some! My husband was still at work so I texted him and said I wanted some..and then I thought to myself "I'm just gonna see if he will think to get some for me on the way home.." huh. That's the exact point where everything started. Of course, he didn't think twice about it, and didn't stop at the grocery store (that he passes right in front of..in fact, I think he passes by a few of them..) to get me any. Now we have been together for long enough for me to know that when I want something, I better ask for it. And I think most men are this way. There are a few out there who would have stopped at the grocery store..but not my husband. He is very black and white. If he wants something, he gets it. Or he ASKS for it. I think if most women just said exactly what they wanted (because guess what, most guys have no idea what we want! or what we are thinking! Because they are men! Not women!) then there wouldn't be as many fights in relationships..Because once I said one thing about the dang watermelon, things started to escalate, and before I knew it, we were fighting about 27 other things that have nothing to do with anything. My sister in law pointed out to me today that had we not started arguing, some of those things wouldn't have come out and we would have no idea that the other person was upset or angry about certain things..I don't know if I can say this is something positive that came out of the whole situation..but I know I got a lot of stuff off my chest for sure..
Women and men are so different. And it's very hard to be married sometimes when you want to ring the other person's neck..but after a looooong time of pouting and whining to God (who was probably thinking how silly I am..) I sucked it up and apologized. That is NOT an easy thing to do people! I have a hard time doing that because I tend to be a prideful person..after that I read Romans 8 and it made me feel better..I am so thankful for my husband, and for everything that he does for me. I have always been such an independent person, and when I play this game it totally throws J off. I didn't even realize what I was doing until we were in the heat of the argument..oh well..no one is perfect!
I hope all of y'all are having a good week..
Goodnight..

I need you at the dimming of the day..

Alison Krauss. That's all I can listen to this week. Judah got me her new album with Union Station (I reaaally like them together), Paper Airplane. I love it. Can't take it out of my CD player. I love all of the songs..even the ones that Dan T..I can't spell his last name right..but I even like the songs that he sings..the kind of..bluegrass music that they play, I really like. And her voice..I could listen to it forever. Alison Krauss is the last artist that I absolutely have to see before she stops performing..My other goals were U2, Radiohead, Coldplay, Thrice, The Album Leaf..okay well I have a lot of favorite bands..but I saw all of them and more so now I have got to see AKUS.
In other news..we just got back from a mini vacation in Navarre Beach, Florida with Judah's family. We had a great time. I really like Navarre Beach..our condo was so nice. It was right on the beach. The beach wasn't packed with people like it often is in Destin..speaking of Destin, it was only about 25 minutes away. We went there to eat one night at this awesome restaurant named Dewey's..It's right near McGuire's..but it's on the water. When you turn off of the main road, it kind of looks like you are heading to a trash dump..It's pretty much a small shack on a dock. I think there were a lot of locals there and it was packed. They have fresh fish every day and we got grilled snapper..it was awesome. We pretty much just played on the beach every day..I got severely sunburned on the first day (-of course-) and was hurting the rest of the time..my nickname was Lobster legs..or Double L. I hate when I do that! I applied sunscreen seriously like 13 times a day after that.  It was a great time just hanging out with Judah's family..we haven't all been together since our wedding. I'm thinking our next vacation will be up to Colorado to visit them..We miss them already.
Alsoooo..my inner fat kid came out severely this weekend..I saw this new blue bell ice cream, coconut fudge and I had to have it. So I found it yesterday..it was hard to find too..and it's almost as good as the mocha almond fudge..if y'all like coconut, you should totally try it..
OH! My mom finalllly came home from Italy, and had carpal and cubital tunnel surgery 3 days later..so now she is sitting at home probably reading this and trying to blog with her left hand..I'm hoping everything heals how it's supposed to..I'm gonna wait for her to get off of the pain pills to hear her Italy stories. She brought me exactly what I wanted for my birthday..a cameo ring!! It's so beautiful..I'm kind of scared to wear it or even take it out of the box..but I love it.
Ps..Judah made me watch the movie Salt..it was the worst. I didn't even make it half way through.
Hope you all sleep well..

Without your love, I'm a dog without a bone..

Tomorra is my birfday!! I'm real excited. This past weekend all of my friends threw me a surprise party..it was so sweet and thank y'all so much again for throwing it for me! (I know the ones who threw it are reading this!) I had a great time..it's always nice to know that I have awesome friends who love me and appreciate me even though I'm a jerk sometimes! I really do have the best family and friends ever. Seriously.
Sunday was Mother's Day..and I was sad because my mother isn't even in the country! But I'm suuuuure she had the best mother's day ever because she is in Italy! But she knows I love and appreciate everything that she has done for me..she never gave up on me (even when I was the most selfish brat there ever was..) and she was always proud of me no matter what I decided I wanted to do. She always made sure that she told me that she was proud of me. And that means a lot to me. She gave me lots of spankings..made sure that we had everything that we wanted or needed..taught us about Jesus..had tea parties with us..helped us write papers and do projects for school..and passed down her love of animals to me! I could go on and on..Happy Mother's Day, mom! We will celebrate when you get home.

This morning I went to drop of my Vega at Charlie and Stephanie's house til Sunday because we will be out of town :(((( I miss her soooo much already! I won't miss her big butt taking up the whole bed tonight, but I miss her snuggling with me every chance she gets. We haven't even left yet and I am already ready to go pick her up!! :'''''''(

Tonight Judah took me to eat at Fleming's, since we will be on the road to Florida tomorrow night..I had never been there and the food was great..a little on the pricey side..but really good. We both got steaks and had some awesome mushrooms on the side and the best molten lava cake you could ever want! While we were waiting on our food, Judah got up to go to the bathroom..when he came back he had a little gift for me..I was so surprised..It was sapphire earrings! Big sapphire earrings! I couldn't say a word. Judah loves me very much..but he's not good with buying gifts..he doesn't care about getting gifts or material things..he kind of things its a waste of money and pointless..but he's starting to understand that that is how I receive love.. I think along with encouraging words..but more so gifts..I'm not spoiled or materialistic..to me it just means that he thought about what he wanted to get me..and he actually did something..he had to go see his jeweler, and spend a little (a lot) $ on me (which is a big thing to someone who won't let any light get in his wallet) He had to actually make it happen..he had to show some action..and I was a very very very very happy wife.
Tomorrow is my birthday!! And we are going to Navarre Beach!
Ah!

We don't shake hands, we shake our fists..

I was going to blog tonight about the whole Osama Bin Laden thing..but my sister in law, Stephanie said everything in her blog that I was thinking..I feel like I was happy at first..to see justice served. But then I really started to think about it..God loved this man. He loved him the same way that he loves me. Yes, he lived a life of sin..but don't we all? Now this man will never have the chance to be with his maker..As christians, we must mourn this.
So that's what I think about that in a nutshell.
This past weekend my husband, my lab, and I went to Grand Isle with my brother and sister in law, and their doggy, Pernkie. It was a really quick trip, but we had a good and relaxing time. I was happy to get away, even if it was just for a short time. I think the doggies had the best time of all of us..I know Vega did. As soon as we got to the beach she bolted for the water..It was really funny. She swam and swam and fetched and ran and played with Pernkie. I always feel guilty that Vega has to stay in our apartment on some days, so I made sure that we made up for that! I took a few pics and will upload them soon!
Today was a crazy day at work..The other PTA that I work with was out, so that meant I saw double the patients. My hands and wrists are paying for that now.
I'm going to the beach next week! which means that I'm on a super diet. I know I know, diets are bad. But, I'm going to the beach soon! Annnd I'm gonna try to work out twice a day..ugh, I know.
That's all for now.
bye bye.