Tuesday, May 24, 2011

I'm just tryin to be a better version of me for You..

Biggest Loser finale! I can't keep up with too many TV shows..but I like to keep up with this one. I just think that it's very fulfilling. You get to watch the contestants transform into new people..not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually. I'm sitting upstairs, snuggling with my Vega..thinking about Romans 8 while I watch this TV show..
"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword...In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us...For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons neither the present nor the future, not any powers, neither height nor depth, not anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
I kind of skipped around a little..but that's definitely one of my favorite chapters in the bible...and I wish I could be more than a conqueror over the ice cream in the freezer that is calling my name right now..anyway, I was reading this last night after I got into a major fight with my husband..over something really stupid: watermelon. I'm not afraid to get a little (just a little) personal on my blog, so here is the silly story. I reallllly wanted some watermelon. I don't know what came over me. I just wanted some! My husband was still at work so I texted him and said I wanted some..and then I thought to myself "I'm just gonna see if he will think to get some for me on the way home.." huh. That's the exact point where everything started. Of course, he didn't think twice about it, and didn't stop at the grocery store (that he passes right in front of..in fact, I think he passes by a few of them..) to get me any. Now we have been together for long enough for me to know that when I want something, I better ask for it. And I think most men are this way. There are a few out there who would have stopped at the grocery store..but not my husband. He is very black and white. If he wants something, he gets it. Or he ASKS for it. I think if most women just said exactly what they wanted (because guess what, most guys have no idea what we want! or what we are thinking! Because they are men! Not women!) then there wouldn't be as many fights in relationships..Because once I said one thing about the dang watermelon, things started to escalate, and before I knew it, we were fighting about 27 other things that have nothing to do with anything. My sister in law pointed out to me today that had we not started arguing, some of those things wouldn't have come out and we would have no idea that the other person was upset or angry about certain things..I don't know if I can say this is something positive that came out of the whole situation..but I know I got a lot of stuff off my chest for sure..
Women and men are so different. And it's very hard to be married sometimes when you want to ring the other person's neck..but after a looooong time of pouting and whining to God (who was probably thinking how silly I am..) I sucked it up and apologized. That is NOT an easy thing to do people! I have a hard time doing that because I tend to be a prideful person..after that I read Romans 8 and it made me feel better..I am so thankful for my husband, and for everything that he does for me. I have always been such an independent person, and when I play this game it totally throws J off. I didn't even realize what I was doing until we were in the heat of the argument..oh well..no one is perfect!
I hope all of y'all are having a good week..
Goodnight..

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