Runnin up a mountain chains tied to my feet..

Do you ever feel this way? Like you're running up a mountain with chains tied to your feet? I definitely can say that I've felt this way for about a year now. And just when you think you have enough momentum, and that you can make it, you remember how heavy the chains are and you slow down. My life has been filled with so many ups and downs..Every day brings a new feeling..Every day I feel different. Sometimes good, sometimes bad. But it goes on..it doesn't stop..it won't stop. Just because I feel a certain way..life doesn't stop. Sometimes I want to just hit a pause button. My life was so boring and so un-challenging (is that even a word??) for so long. 27 years to be exact. And in one year I have gone through so much..I really learned who I am..I actually can say that I am a Christian..that I have a relationship with Jesus..before last year I was a 'christian'..but sometimes it takes going through a life changing experience to really learn and know who Jesus is. He knows I'm full of crap. He knows that I'll never be perfect-or even close to it. But he doesn't care. I wish more people understood this..thanks to POD for those deep thoughts today.. (one of my favorite songs by them..)

Ummm that was a little deep and I don't want to like get all deep all the time..soooo.
Today, I went to Starbucks, and the girl at the window gave me my iced hazelnut macchiato (try it!) and then she was like "Hey, do you want a venti caramel macchiato?" I'm never one to turn down a huge free delicious caffeinated beverage..so I took it. So I drank 2 cups of coffee this morning..my macchiato..and a third of the other gigantic one..sooo I sort of have the jitters now. I tried to run it off earlier tonight, but I'm still goin. Good thing I have 2 psycho animals that beg me to entertain them at all hours of the day (that I'm here at least..).

I don't know that I have much else to say. I started reading 2 books today.. Looking For Alaska by John Green..and Of Mice and Men. I thought it was weird that I haven't read Of Mice and Men so I figured I better get on that since it's a tiny book and I'll most likely finish it tomorrow. It's been awhile since I've read a book just for fun and I really enjoy it.. I think I'm going to read The Fault in Our Stars next..It's been on my reading list for quite a while and I noticed today that it was on the 'popular teen books that will most likely be turned into a crappy movie soon' table. I was like omgggg all of these kids are reading it and I haven't yet..I'm getting so old! jk.

Hey all you Ides of March bloggers..are y'all reading any good books right now??

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that's all
goodnight