Dos.

Day 2!
So I had a funny dream last night..I dreamed that I was pregnant and about to have the baby..Judah brings me to the hospital and the doctor says, "umm you are actually having 5 babies..not just one." So Judah leaves the hospital and comes back right before I go into labor with a stack of paperwork..he tells me that I have to sign it all so that we will have health insurance before the babies were born..So I started signing away then I woke up. It's funny because something like that would so happen in real life. Leave it to Judah to be thinking about that kind of stuff in a time of crisis. I guess it's a good thing that he is that way because I don't always plan/think things out very thoroughly. I am very blessed to have him as my husband. (and also very blessed that we DO have health insurance already.)

I still haven't eaten any sweets..I want some oreos so bad..but I won't do it! I actually got on the scale this morning and lost 4 pounds since I last weighed myself (which was like, a month ago). So I was pretty excited about that. Around a month ago I started exercising a lot more..about 30 minutes per day. It's not much but it's just about all I can fit in, and it really makes a difference! After all, swim suit season is coming up really soon! I have about 7 more pounds that I would like to lose..I gained about 15 after I got married
:-/ Overall, I really just want to feel stronger. The other day I had to stretch a patient's leg, and after only about 10 minutes of that both of my arms were shaking because I was so weak. That's pretty sad! And it wasn't even a heavy or overweight leg..it was almost a chicken leg! So I broke out my weights and swiss ball.
I think I've bored you all enough for one day! Until tomorrow..

Beware the Ides of March..

Today marks the first day of my daily blogging..yay!
I'm a little exhausted so my creative juices aren't flowing very well right now..I just got home from work and immediately started on supper without sitting for one second (after sitting in traffic for 1+ hours)
But..I blog on. This time change has got me all crazy..I still think it's early when I get home and that I have all this time to get supper finished..but I don't!! In walks the hubby and the zuchinni, squash, and round steaks aren't done. It's gonna take a little getting used to.
Also..I'm trying really hard not to eat any sweets this week. Now I know that sounds really easy to a lot of people probably..but not to me!! At home we have those little chocolate cadbury eggs and mint oreos..at work we have reeses, mr. goodbars..I could go on and on..oh and thanks to my mother we have small cakes with tirimasu on top..geez thanks mom you couldn't have picked a better week to bring them.
I'm not so much doing it for health reasons (although I REALLY should) I'm doing it because of my huge lack of self control. I really have none. It's kinda sad, really.  But, I'm working on it! In other aspects of my life, also. It is a fruit of the spirit, after all..maybe I will try to work on each one over the next few months. I know I need a lot more of them in my life! If I say I'm a Christian then I should have every one of the fruits in my life..Or I should clarify that I should TRY to have them all because Lord knows I have my moments when I am faaaar from perfect ha. But how can I say I have the Holy Spirit if I am not showing any of those fruits in my life? Good thing we have every day for the rest of our lives to start over with a clean slate.
But all I'm thinking about right now is that tirimasu :]

Everyone else is doing it..

Yay blogs! I am so excited that all of the 5 people that I follow are blogging more now..that shows how much I have to do..I know there are about 5 or 6 books in a stack on my bedside table that I need to be finishing..buuut I'll get to them at some point..
Apparently, starting on March 15, my cousin Ashleigh decided that we are all going to try to blog.every.single.day. Every day! Do I even have that many thoughts?? It will be a challenge for me..probably a good one. My brain needs some exercising these days..most days I feel like I do the same thing over and over and my brain doesn't actually do any work.
I have been thinking lately that I would love to join a sewing/quilting/knitting/something of that nature class. How would one go about finding one of these in the Baton Rouge/New Roads area? One that involves women my age? Or under the age of 70? I need a good hobby.

Tonight I made the best baked chicken-ever! (Maybe it was because I threw some sweet potatoes in with the carrots and celery-sooo good!)

Also, Eisley's new album The Valley has been my obsession this week..It's my favorite new album of the year-so far! It's only March :]
However, today I think that I started to feel like I was Sherri (one of the singers) and everything that she was singing about was happening to me, and it was making me sad so I had to stop..(I put on some worship music and then instantly felt better). All of these things that they sing about have happened to me before in relationships, so I can definitely relate to every single song..which is great because that's what most songwriter's are aiming for right? For their fans to feel what they are singing about..and I felt it.

In other news, anyone want a cat???? He's driving us insaaaaane.

Random post..

It's been awhile since I've updated this thing..so here is my attempt to keep my thoughts going on one track (which I'm horrible at-you would know if you've ever had a conversation with me ha!) I get sidetracked very easily..thanks mom, I get that from you-it's not always a bad thing :]

Tonight my husband flew out of town to Nashville to see one of his favorite bands for their album release party..the band he is going to see is Red-one of his favorites..not so much one of mine. We are very different..but I love him so much. I never dreamed I would be living this life I'm living..I still can't believe I'm about to turn 27..!! I feel like I haven't lived very much in my 27 years..But I am learning new things about myself every day.
Before I got married..I had all of these ideas of what I thought marriage would be like. I knew that it wasn't going to be perfect (or what I imagine perfect to be) and I knew it wasn't going to be like this fairy tale all of the time. For some reason I kind of thought that I would just change..that my husband and I would be on the same page about most things and that I would be protected from a lot of things (sorry I'm being very vague right now..) But I learned that in marrying someone so very different from myself, that I had to re think some things..and compromise on some other things. We aren't really on the same page right now spiritually..but I know that will change one day..I think the biggest thing I am learning right now is patience.  We have all of these plans for our life and they are happening at a very...slow..pace. I'm trying to live in this moment and appreciate it, because I know the blessings that God has for us in the future..and they will happen in His timing, not ours. I am also learning that being married kind of brings out the worst in us sometimes and that we have to deal with it..because if we don't it becomes this huge elephant in the room and it just pushes us farther apart from one another. I still have a lot of the same issues that I did before we got married..darn they didn't just disappear on our wedding day..they are still there under the surface needing to be dealt with. Judah can't solve all of my issues-that's what I meant when I said that I felt like I would be protected from some things-some issues. But he can't do a thing about them 1) because they have nothing to do with him 2) Only God can do that.  But..we are all works in progress..every day until the day that we depart from this earth..we can try and try to live up to perfection-or what we think perfection is..but it's just a daily process!

Oh I think that was enough rambling for right now..just some of my thoughts :]
I think every woman needs to read this book by Beth Moore..thanks to my sister-in-law, Steph for letting me borrow it! It's called So Long Insecurity and it's pretty great. This book deals with things that every single woman on the planet deals with on a daily basis..things that we say and do and we don't even realize it. We don't realize the damage we are doing to our souls..and the people around us by our actions and words. Check it out!

That's enough for now..hopefully will update more often on here!

I think I have a really bad..

sugar addiction!! Seriously..

That's all..

Also, I have been thinking that it would be fun to do a food/recipe blog..I'm always looking for new things to cook..So I will just start by adding my first recipe! Last night I cooked a really awesome potato and asparagus soup..It was so good! You can't really taste the asparagus in it so it would be a good trick to give someone who doesn't like it or many vegetables..I used a can of evaporated milk, about a pound and a half of potatoes and a bunch of asparagus. I put the milk, potatoes, asparagus, a cup and a fourth of water, and a pinch of salt and pepper and cooked that on the stove until the potatoes were soft..about 15 minutes. Then I just poured it all in the blender and pureed it! I also added some bacon on top and it was really good..so if anyone reads this you should try it! It's very easy. Have a great weekend! I'm gonna try to go and NOT eat any candy..

Late night thoughts..

So..I really like having this blog..even if no one reads it..it feels good to just think something and type it out. Especially when I have been feeling a certain way or praying about a certain thing for a long time. I have been thinking lately that I am very lucky to have grown up the way I did..to have had a mother who read us scriptures everrrry morning before school, and taught us how to..well, be a christian. I am so happy that she really taught us to look at the heart of every matter..

She taught us how important it is to have a real relationship with Jesus..not just to be a religious person. She taught us not to be prideful..after all, we are all the same at the core of our beings..God made each and every one of us in HIS image..therefore not one is better than the other..not one is prettier, smarter, skinnier..etc. He says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. On that subject, I only realized recently how negative I am towards myself, and how negative other people are towards themselves..if God made us in HIS image, when we insult ourselves, we are insulting Him..scary thought. I have also been thinking/repenting a lot lately for unforgiveness. God forgave us first, so we must forgive! In order to live a totally blameless life before God..you have to forgive..even if I feel like I'm wronged in the situation..I just think about the day that I have to stand before the Lord..I really don't think that He's going to sit there and listen to me give some excuse about being hurt, etc. I want to say that I was able to forgive, and not hold a grudge. I can only speak for myself, and how I reacted..God will deal with the other person..

I guess I am very lucky to know the Lord, to have a real relationship with him. Sometimes it frustrates me so much to see things, and to wish that other people could see the same things I see..I may be quiet sometimes..but I really have a lot to say! I was always scared to say what I really believed until my whole world came crashing down and all I had left..was Jesus. Everything that I thought was supposed to be perfect all crumbled to pieces..that's when I realized how selfish I've been..towards everyone..God, my friends and family, and to myself. I'm still working on picking up all of the pieces..but this time I have Someone who will pick them all up for me and make them whole again :]

(Sorry for the cheesiness..)

That's all for now. 

Goodnight!