Spend my nights alone, catching falling starts to give to you love..

I don't really spend my nights alone..just had these lyrics in my head..gotta love Allison Krauss :]
I still haven't seen her live yet and I need to! Maybe she will be at jazz fest or something this year..
Today I got a visit from an old friend from high school..it was so good to see her. It made me think about all of the crazy things that we did back then..we had so much fun together. She was telling me that she is newly single..which she hasn't been in..well..for as long as I can remember. I really don't know what I would do if I was single..I don't think I've ever really been single since as far back as I can remember! I mean maybe I was for like, a few months or something..but I always had a boyfriend. What's so funny to me is that after I got married I kind of regretted not having that time to be able to find out what I wanted out of life or who I really was. But now, I don't regret it anymore. I have learned so much about myself after being married. I learned how to be strong and how to stand my ground on things that I really believe in. I honestly don't know if I would have done that when I was single. I'm sure I would have eventually..but being married forced me to find out what I really believe, and fast. And how to deal with things..of course I still have plenty to learn. Thanks God we have our entire lives to do that!
I noticed today that I have this irrational fear that my house is going to catch on fire..(What a subject change, right??) Every single morning I make sure like 10 times before I leave that my hair straightener is off (then I text Judah after I leave for him to check it) and I make sure the dryer isn't running or the dishwasher..and I check the stove all of the time. I started doing this about a year ago. A family that I knew had a fire in their home about a year and a half ago (maybe 2 years..?). They weren't home, and their animals were in the house. I can barely think about it without getting upset because they lost their animals. So when I leave Vega at home, she is in her kennel..and all I think about is if there is a fire at our apartment, no one will know she's stuck in there and she won't be able to get out..I know this is so crazy because I know it won't happen..it's so stupid that I think about it all the time! I don't know what I would do if I lost my Vega! She is my sweetheart..she was there for me when I needed someone..during the hardest time of my life. She was my buddy. I know some people won't understand that, but we don't have children (together) yet, so she's my baby girl. I'm gonna work on this fear because it's so stupid!

Yay tomorrow is Friday!
nighty night.