cravings..

I want meat. I want a big bacon cheeseburger. I would never mentally be able to consume an entire one because I would be thinking about how many calories were in it the whole time..I know I have a problem..but I'm only human! I don't really cook much meat at home..if it's ground meat it's either chicken or turkey..but I might finally make it over to 5 Guys one of these days and eat a big nasty greasy gross cheeseburger. There's nothing better!

I really really need some new music..I'm so tired of all of the music I have right now..I spend like 2 or more hours every day in my car..so I get tired of it fast..pandora radio helps (blink 182 and relient k are my favorite stations..Blink 182 is my guilty music pleasure..) but even they tend to play the same songs every other day. So, if any of you know of any new music out there..lemme know.

Also..can anyone give me some ideas of things that you eat for supper? I have like 197 recipes that I want to try..but I'm lazy this week and don't feel like doing that..I would just like to know what kinds of things you people are eating that I may not have thought of..?

nighty night bloggies.

boring.

My day..was boring. very boring. I went to work..came home..p90x'ed..made supper (well..it was half leftovers so that doesn't really count)..then watched the biggest loser. I also bought my ticket to see Eisley :] I'm real excited about that..but..there aren't any ticketmaster retail outlets near me..that sucks!

Today one of my patients told me that he didn't allow his son to play basketball this year because he has anger issues..and he can't sit through any sports event at FRA without getting yelled at, kicked out, or swung at. (I'm talking about the father btw, not the son..) How much would that suck? You can't play a sport that you like because you're dad hates every Ref there is in the state of Louisiana and might get in a fight with one..He also tried to fight his boss at one point..he be crazy. I can't imagine how this makes his wife and children feel..

Oh and I'm excited to see Explosions In the Sky on Friday..not excited for the drive..actually I wasn't really excited about going at all until today. I would have never gone to see them..but I got sucked in. And I think it will be a great show! And I found a ticketmaster retail outlet near the venue so if we are early I might just go and pick up my Eisley ticket..
Can you tell I was in a better mood today??

Take me home, I walk the night in the valley..

Sorry for the short post yesterday, blog..I think if I would have typed out everything I needed to say I might still be typing it at this very moment.
There are so many things in my life right now that frustrate me. In almost every area of my life. I can't do anything about any of it either..except pray. I can't change people or the way they think or act so all I can do is ask God to open their eyes to the world around them. I am the kind of person that always looks deeper at every situation..trying to see the root of it. Some people think that's a little overboard or crazy..but I need to know! It can be something so simple that a person will do..but I always try to find out why. I don't think it's a bad thing to do..The only downside to this is that I over analyze a lot of things..sometimes to the point where I will feel sick to my stomach-even if the situation has nothing to do with me. One time when I was in Junior High I had a friend call me and ask advice about something..and I kept trying to think of what to say to her (it was about a boy, and I had no idea what to say..) and I felt so bad and she finally said "Risa, I think you are more worried about my problem than I am". I was legitimately trying to help her, but I think she just wanted to gossip. Hm. Junior High girls.
Thankfully, I did some hardcore p90x today and got a lot of my frustration out..yeah, it's still there but I needed an outlet. And my legs are reeeeeeeal sore.
Then I made lemon chicken soup. It was soooo good! It didn't take very long to make either..it's a recipe from the lady on food network who makes healthy food..her name just slipped my mind but she has short hair..y'all know who I'm talkin about.
4 days til Explosions In the Sky!!

I'm begging you to be my escape..

I am completely emotionally and mentally exhausted.

Do you ever just want to run away??

The end will justify the pain it took to get us there..

I'm blogging early today..I'm going out to celebrate a friend's birthday tonight and I know I will get home too late and forget to do this!
So I pretty much feel like I didn't get anything done today..well I got one thing accomplished..I got fitted for a bridesmaids dress for my cousin's wedding. I was supposed to come home and clean my house, but my electricity went..so now instead of cleaning, I'm blogging..I'll clean as soon as I finish this! I absolutely love the blogs that both of my sister in laws just wrote..they are so true and I am happy that they both realize that they have found a treasure in Charlie and Nicholas. I can say this because I have had my fair share of crappy relationships. The one I was in right before I met my husband was the worst one..I think everyone that reads this knows that so I really don't have to say much about it. We brought out the WORST in each other ALL OF THE TIME. I have never been treated so disrespectfully in my entire life..I have never known anyone that could make me feel like the ugliest, fattest (literally, he told me every day), grossest..I just don't understand why I stayed there for so long. It was definitely a soul tie that lasted for almost 10 years of my life. I knew I was stuck in that relationship and I didn't have the strength to leave it. I prayed every single night for God to help me find a way out. Then I met Judah..and he literally took me out of that situation. It wasn't easy but he made it a little easier and helped me through a lot of it..He was very sweet, kind, patient, caring, giving..He had a lot of the qualities that I admire in a man.
I honestly didn't know what I did to deserve a man that would treat me that way..He stayed with me through a lot of crap that I had to deal with and he didn't push me or get frustrated with me. He just loved me. And now, I do the same for him. I am here for the long run and I know that we will go through our crap, but we are supposed to be there through the crap..that's the whole point! At least, that's what I made a vow to do on our wedding day. I love Judah so much and I thank God daily for him.

And my head told my heart, let love grow..

I'm so tired so I think this one will be a short one..
Today I worked, took Ethan to Paradise Smoothie so he could get nasty tapioca balls, came home and changed and took the kids bowling with a bunch of people from my church..we had a great time. I'm so thankful to my family for loving the boys so much..Especially my brothers..the kids love them so much and can't imagine living without Charlie aka "Link" for 2 years when he moves..I'm gonna have to apologize in advance to Nicky for them driving him nuts to play video games and baseball with them!! I'm going to spend like 5 minutes with my husband now before he falls asleep..goodnight!

Spend my nights alone, catching falling starts to give to you love..

I don't really spend my nights alone..just had these lyrics in my head..gotta love Allison Krauss :]
I still haven't seen her live yet and I need to! Maybe she will be at jazz fest or something this year..
Today I got a visit from an old friend from high school..it was so good to see her. It made me think about all of the crazy things that we did back then..we had so much fun together. She was telling me that she is newly single..which she hasn't been in..well..for as long as I can remember. I really don't know what I would do if I was single..I don't think I've ever really been single since as far back as I can remember! I mean maybe I was for like, a few months or something..but I always had a boyfriend. What's so funny to me is that after I got married I kind of regretted not having that time to be able to find out what I wanted out of life or who I really was. But now, I don't regret it anymore. I have learned so much about myself after being married. I learned how to be strong and how to stand my ground on things that I really believe in. I honestly don't know if I would have done that when I was single. I'm sure I would have eventually..but being married forced me to find out what I really believe, and fast. And how to deal with things..of course I still have plenty to learn. Thanks God we have our entire lives to do that!
I noticed today that I have this irrational fear that my house is going to catch on fire..(What a subject change, right??) Every single morning I make sure like 10 times before I leave that my hair straightener is off (then I text Judah after I leave for him to check it) and I make sure the dryer isn't running or the dishwasher..and I check the stove all of the time. I started doing this about a year ago. A family that I knew had a fire in their home about a year and a half ago (maybe 2 years..?). They weren't home, and their animals were in the house. I can barely think about it without getting upset because they lost their animals. So when I leave Vega at home, she is in her kennel..and all I think about is if there is a fire at our apartment, no one will know she's stuck in there and she won't be able to get out..I know this is so crazy because I know it won't happen..it's so stupid that I think about it all the time! I don't know what I would do if I lost my Vega! She is my sweetheart..she was there for me when I needed someone..during the hardest time of my life. She was my buddy. I know some people won't understand that, but we don't have children (together) yet, so she's my baby girl. I'm gonna work on this fear because it's so stupid!

Yay tomorrow is Friday!
nighty night.